hey. uh. haha. sorry. i've been so incredibly lazy all week. i've only run once and i've been eating like crazy. swear to god i'm going to gain like 10 pounds this week. although i mean to run today. yeah. it's been snowing. a lot. i hate it. it's so effing depressing and last night i almost didn't get to go see ben/this is the weather because of it.

i think wednesday was the day i was really pissed all day. haha. i may have cried once or twice and screamed at people a couple of times. but i was ok eventually. i decided i think i'm going to try to take four AP classes next year. and i actually think i might be okay. also relating to that i'm about 99% sure i definitely want to go to pitt. i asked around about some of the bad things about it and nothing compared to the good. of course i need back-up plans and i'm also really looking at oberlin and haverford, but... i can't see myself anywhere other than pitt. it's always been in the back of my mind and it's just... i don't know, it's really where i want to be.

wednesday night i went to dance for jackie's piece. we learned the entire barbie girl dance. haha. and liz and jacquelyn are jessie are so cute and i love hanging out with college students. hahaha. and i'm really excited for this piece.

thursday it snowed like crazy and we were really hoping for a 2-hour delay the next day, but alas, nothing. heather and liz did cancel dance, though. so it was nice to have some kind of break.

last night this is the weather were playing at the hanogut. whitney and i practically had to sell our souls to get a ride (+tsa) up there but we got there. and basically sat around for 3 hours and watched one band (titw). haha. it was fun though. ben is so fucking hot. and rick showed up for like 30 seconds. i was happy but i wanted him to come back. meh.

today looks like it's going to be kind of busy... i WILL update tomorrow! haha.

xoxo



22 January 2007, 9:32 PM

i've been praying we've been singing the same song
♪: gracer - waiting for departure

i kind of lose at this whole blogging every day thing. oh well, at least i'm starting again now.

um. friday i was at ellen's house all day. i actually really enjoyed watching lord of the rings again and i don't think i did anything to make anyone hate me. hahaha. i did nothing but eat all day though so i felt kind of gross.

let's see. saturday. i spent like four hours reading the jungle for history. i like it but it's just SO MUCH READING at once. sigh. and the book itself is incredibly depressing. anyway. that night i went to tsa's with whitney and we watched the performance from the tbs dvd (OMGZ MARCH 31 AHHH), the good scenes from brokeback mountain, all of snakes on a plane, and the end of little miss sunshine. i've had enough of soap to last me a lifetime now. hahaha. oh man. so that was fun. then i came home and watched SNL and nearly had a heart attack over jade's outfit. mmhmm.

sunday i finished all my work and then there was a show at the union room at six. six bands... including speakerfire, gracer and signal home. !!! i was so so happy. i went to ask troy if they were playing last and talked to him on my own a little. and we danced at each other during gracer. i don't know why he has to be so cute. speakerfire were great and ian humped his guitar, causing a slight death on our part. god damn. oh, i bought a gracer cd and whitney bought a shirt. i couldn't stay for all of SH but all i missed was seaside and talking to troy afterwords... and i talked to him earlier anyway. sigh, i felt so good during the SH set and history of choices almost made me cry. and troy and i sang my favorite line of churches at each other. haha. so it was good.

last night i didn't fall asleep until really late cause our furnace was breaking. i was freezing. this morning i was so, so depressed. combination of the weather, lack of sleep, and having to go to school after a really amazing night. but it got better. i got an A on my history test, which is really nice. and we changed classes. i now have english with mrs g, and i get to sit next to rachel so we can bond again. i'm so happy. and i have study hall with a bunch of people i love including LEAH who i haven't had a class with all year. :']

i think i remembered to talk about everything. hahaha.

xoxo



18 January 2007, 10:24 PM

my kind's your kind, i'll stay the same
♪: yeah yeah yeahs - maps

so look, i skipped a day and here i am blogging again. IN YO FACE HATAZ.

yesterday consisted of school, which i don't remember, maybe a math test? yes, that sounds right. not too bad, i felt like i knew what i was doing. then i ran after school and then studied history with leah. which was nice. later in the evening i went to rehearsal for jackie's dance piece, finally. it's going to be so cool and i'm very excited.

why can't i remember anything about school ever?! um, it was the last day of curry's class and he celebrated by kicking my ass at scrabble. whitney was scared to play and she actually came close, hahaha. erm. history test too. for once i feel better about the essay than the multiple choice. eh. oh, and last day of 3rd period study hall with dan, which i'm going to miss lots.

tonight i had dance which was very exhausting and sweaty. and sorry, interjetion, but ohmygod i am going to kill my computer right now. it seriously just STOPPED for 10 minutes (i counted) and i didn't even do anything at all. ANYWAY. then i went to chris's to watch the scrubs musical with some people. it was hilarious and i was happy. tomorrow i'm going to ellen's to watch lord of the rings all day. that's all.

xoxo



16 January 2007, 9:10 PM

here's your future: it's gonna rain
♪: daft punk - digital love

so, not gonna lie, i'm on a techno kick right now because KSDAJFK;AJG;KJ BLAQK AUDIO COMING OUT SOON. this nearly killed me today. oh jade. we know you still have a crush on davey, just admit it. sigh.
ok seriously i'm not the only one that does this, haha, there are a billion fangirls at smileinjected @ lj that are a horrible influence on me. how do you think i discover all of this?!
speaking of, adam carson is really sexy.

ANYWAY. first day back at school after a 3-day weekend. i got a 25/30 on my physics test, which is an 83%. i have exactly 90% in there now, which is kind of scary. i'd better do well on that lab. WE DON'T HAVE AN ENGLISH FINAL. that is the hugest relief ever as otherwise i would have had to study lots. there is a math test tomorrow, though. sigh. but i'll make it.

i feel so lazy lately. there's a bunch of stuff i should be doing that's just... not happening. like i meant to read the jungle tonight, or at least study history, but i've been on the computer all afternoon. except for dinner and dance. we're starting to choreograph dances and it's impossible to tell what it's going to be like yet, but you know.

i got into NHS and i'm stressing because we need 3 pictures and a biography and then we have to be recognized in an assembly. contrary to popular belief, i don't ALWAYS like attention.

xoxo



14 January 2007, 11:20 PM

farewell, my love
♪: signal home - a history of choices

my days have been so strange lately. today i woke up in a random bad mood. i think it was because i didn't do anything yesterday and i really meant to. at any rate i slept till noon. then i got in a gigantic screaming fight with my parents. it's still really awkward between my dad and me and i kind of feel bad, but not really, because i meant what i said. he's fucking horrible to me when he argues with me.

ummm i kind of tried to work on homework all day. i did my math and read a chapter of the jungle. i like it but it's so long and i get distracted so easily.

we took everyone to the show at 7-ish. it was pretty fun, but i seriously felt so crazy and high the entire time, lmao, i'm honestly wondering if someone drugged me. we were watching one of the bands and i felt really hot and like i was going to puke. so i went and sat down. looked at troy, stuck my tongue out at him, he started like, wiggling from side to side and doing it back. hahaha. then later he was popping up from behind the merch bins and making faces at me. so scary and amusing at the same time. later i told him he scared me and he was like "i'm trying my hardest" or something. or maybe he said that to melissa or sam about something else, but i doubt they would both fit in that context or whatever.

one of the bands was sooooo strange. it was this really slutty chick who was dating this, like, 60 year old man. i'm not even sure that really happened. hahaha.

SH played, like, 9 songs. umm lemme think. yeah 9. including an encore. we were RIGHT in front of troy and he is so fucking pretty :[ i told him i would cry if they didn't play churches. but they did so it was ok. he danced a lot. and pauldean knocked fred over. haha. some chick was glaring at me the entire time though. annnyyyywaaayy afterword we talked to troy a little bit and got (very)sweaty hugs which is always nice.

mmm what else, there were pretty boys there. blow boy and donny and jason and some new kid. i honestly don't even remember anything, maybe i was high???

i'm fucking stressing about tomorrow and i'm really, really depressed and i need to sleep but i DO NOT want to go to bed. i'm so confused... ugh, what is my life, all i care to blog about anymore is troy.

xoxo