bad last couple of days... last night i discovered that AFI tickets were sold out. i cried. i was kind of teary all night and then i went to dance and everyone was giving me hugs and asking me what was wrong and i just lost it. after i cried a bit and thought about it, and then danced for awhile, i was ok. i mean, there will be more concerts. i was just really looking forward to this one, even though it wasn't for sure.

i came home 4th period today because my cramps were so bad. i'm really scared now because i took 800mg of ibuprofin, which i'm allowed to do, according to my doctor, but it didn't help. i mean, it did, but not enough. i really need to start doing something different but my mom's being really stubborn and stupid. i can't keep going on like this. i took 800 more mg only 5 hours later and scared the crap out of my mom because she though it was too soon to take it. well i'm obviously not passed out or vomiting blood, so hey. i did kind of get really sleepy, but i didn't sleep much last night and i always crash at around 1 anyway. so i took a nap from like 3:30 till 5:30. it was nice, but i'm still tired.

i'm looking at signal home's myspace and they're seriously going to be around here like 5 more times in the next month. haha. so twice this weekend, once next weekend, then january 21 and february 2, hopefully. oh well, you can never have enough troy, eh? i'm so fucking excited for the shows this weekend.

xoxo



04 January 2007, 6:37 PM

felt the chill upon my face
♪: AFI - affliction

hello blog~

um. i think this weekend is mostly worked out, which is really cool. looks like shows saturday AND sunday night. meaning lots of signal home, meaning lots of TROY. and IAN on sunday. fuck YES. i like live for these things :[ the one on saturday is a darfur benefit, too, so i'll feel like a good person.

i fucking hate the crucible. we're reading it for english. i just... i don't like reading plays unless they're shakespeare, because his words can stand on their own as poetry, but everything else just feels like it should be in paragraph form. but today in class we were discussing how it related to current events when miller wrote it, so maybe i can get into it more now. yeah, we've been assigned a crapload of reading lately. well, we just have to do this, and 'the jungle' for history. we're reading 'the little prince' for french but that really doesn't count, haha. it just feels like i'm carrying a lot of literature lately.

tonight i have dance. i'm excited to see people and get a good workout. i'm really enjoying that kind of thing lately. such a freak. julia and i are probably going to start running before history day research.

i feel like i'm forgetting something academic, but whatever, school is boring.

i can drive the flipping volkswagen. too bad i can't spell it. i can't spell crucible either.

xoxo



03 January 2007, 4:23 PM

what new friends will the day bring?
♪: AFI - 6 to 8

MY NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION IS TO WRITE IN THIS THING EVERY FREAKING DAY. XD

let's just start over. if i need to review what happened i have my lj, yeah? haha.

so new year's eve we had a party again. something like 2 of my friends and 50 of my parents' were at my house. we hung out in my room. i got to take more people in the hot tub (whitney, sarah, justin and leah) and hang with lots of people. maja hung out in my room again too, haha. she's cute. then later we went to chris's... didn't do much; mostly waited for AFI to play the midnight song. i spazzed a lot and i'm really embarassed, but oh well, nobody's said anything about it other than the people i brought it up first with, and they don't care.

i think i've decided that new year's eve/day is my favorite holiday. i'm so excited about 2007. i slept in (kinda) that morning and then we went to our friends' house for breakfast/lunch. they had lots of people there including a few of the kids i babysit. haha. then leah walked back to our house with me to get her bathing suit that she'd left, lol. she stayed and talked to mom & me for awhile... i swear to god we're half sisters, haha. i had to spend the rest of the day reading history, but it wasn't so bad.

oh! the steelers game sunday was my favorite yet. because we BEAT THE BENGALS dalkfj;asg perfect ending to my season. i cried, and then hung the terrible towel on my wall. getting to wear my roethlisberger jersey was nice too. :]

school hasn't been so bad. i didn't do too badly on the history quizzes, and today i kept my only (real) new year's resolution. i cried at lunch for a stupid reason, but i'm allowed to do that. the important thing is that i let it go and didn't try to bring it up later and apologize and things like that. i worry too much and i really need to stop.

today after school i ran outside, because it's gorgeous. i just basically went up my entire street and back down, a mile. very nice. i've also been driving a ton lately. i feel like a good person, haha :]

xoxo



02 December 2006, 10:55 AM

would you be my bait?
♪: the killers - when you were young

so how about i haven't even had any time to update. or when i did i forgot. haha. but here you go, now.

wednesday night i went to rehearsal with jackie, which was really like a meeting. she's doing a dance piece on eating disorders/body image. there's like eight of us and it's going to be freaking awesome, and i'm really glad she asked me to do it, because i love jackie and allegheny dance and it's a really interesting topic to me.

thursday after school julia and i went to the library to do history. first we studied for the test and then we talked to her dad about topics. at first i wanted to do john lennon's murder, but then we talked about it and now i'm doing how bob dylan influenced the protest/anti-war movement. it's a topic i've wanted to do for FORVER so i'm pretty psyched. i also had modern that night, and our combination is really, really fun. i didn't even realize how much i missed modern dance. it feels like i haven't really done it in ages.

last night i went to see scrooge! i saw it last year but i liked it better this year cause chris had a slightly bigger part, and i kind of know the guy that played bob cratchitt (which i can never spell properly), and of course i know mr curry better. haha. afterword he gave us hugs for coming. i was like, YES! bonus points for us! hahaha, not like, grade-wise, but he'll like us better.

ummm my brain is going to explode from school work. the last couple of days i've been loaded with math homework, had a math quiz, had to study for a gigantic history test (which i ROCKED, for the record), had to start reading and analyzing the grapes of wrath, write two french essays, take a computer test, and learn new physics. fortunately i understand/am doing well on all of it, but my god, it causes some headaches. and this weekend i've got to read 2 chapters of grapes of wrath, 2 chapters of history (that's a LOT), and almost 100 pages of the killer angels. that, and write a french essay and do math homework. yeah, it sucks, but whatever. i don't have much of a choice.

i really don't want it to be december. i have no problem with the end of the year, cause i think 2006 was the worst (and best at some points, but it was only that good because it had been so bad, you know?) year of my life, so i'm alright to say goodbye to it. i just hate winter. but at least christmas break is coming up!

oh, ps, i am never, ever changing this layout, so don't even ask.

xoxo



28 November 2006, 9:02 PM

there's a hole in the trust that we mapped out in my bed
♪: saosin - voices

I LOVE THIS SONG. okay.

hi! back to school today. it wasn't SO bad. the worst parts were getting up in the morning and going to el-func. because i loathe el-func. and i have it 8th period, so it kills my english high.

the first four classes i didn't even do anything. french (duh), in computer i had finished my work, then study hall, then physics, but we had mrs reisner and zylak hadn't left a lesson plan. insanity, i tell you. in gym sarah and i had the worst game of badminton ever. haha. the other girls, like, weren't even paying attention and we're still hardly beating them. the light kept blinding me and we kept randomly missing. it was awful. but pretty funny. haha. in english we started the grapes of wrath and i actually like it a lot. *lit knerd*

i had ballet tonight. it wasn't so bad. i have new pointe shoes and they're tres pretty. i need to break them in, though, cause right now i can't even get up on full pointe. haha. stephanie got into allegheny so i'm happy for her. :] and she didn't hate me for being mean to dan, woooo, she didn't even know. haha.

now i'm off to go read the grapes of wrath and killer angels~

oh and HAPPY BIRTHDAY JADE~! he went shopping with nils, apparently? WAY TO STEAL DAVEY'S BOYFRIEND. you know he's jealous. threesome much? omg, i need a life. :[

xoxo