so you know those dreams where you want to get somewhere and you're late and you just CAN'T GET THERE? yeah, my life has been like that the past two days. hahaha. yesterday we went shopping in erie and i bought my new camera! it's a canon powershot elph again, but it's kind of upgraded: more megapixels, better zoom, takes pictures quicker, better settings... aghhh i'm so excited. i don't get it until we leave for the cape but hey.

anyway, after that we went to dinner and then to the bookstore so my parents could buy me a few smaller birthday presents. i could spend hours in the book store, but that was ridiculous. i looked at about 15 million books and read almost an entire magazine. yikes. we didn't get home till really late.

then today my dad and i took the car to pittsburgh for inspection. well, the inspection itself was in wexford, so we stoped there and ate at panera's for the second time in two days. hahaha. i had a cinnamon bagel with cream cheese and some mango tea and read an artsy newspaper and it was just HEAVEN. but then the car took another few hours to get done and i had to sit in the waiting room watching mtv for like 2 more hours. haha.

THEN when we were leaving wexford to go to pittsburgh to visit my grandparents. we took a wrong turn and got lost for like an hour trying to get back to the highway. it was HELL. meanwhile the temperature is climbing to an entire 100 degrees. yikes. we finally made it to pittsburgh, but entering a different way, so my dad got lost AGAIN. it took us so long to get to my grandparents and just ugh. :/ but we celebrated my birthday there and i got moneys. $$$ :D hahaha.

we finally got home and i made a few phone calls... i decided to call dan tonight, after all, and i got his voicemail... this was like 5:30... okay, i don't want to sound like a freaky stalker, but i'm curious: what the hell could he be doing for five hours? i don't expect him to call me after 10, but still... and i know he wouldn't just NOT call me, cause he told me to call him. but hey. i'm actually excited for him to call me back.

i went to see 'john tucker must die' with leah, sarah, donnelle and chris. it was cute and funny and i actually really liked it. haha. we bought 'bling' afterwords and took some silly pictures (the photobooth was broken but chris had his camera). it was fun-ness.

i re-set-up my aim tonight with a new screen name: got lazzara. :D i'm excited. & i should go to bed soon cause i have an eye appointment early tomorrow.

xoxo



31 July 2006, 11:47 AM

your lies weren't enough to keep me here
♪: goo goo dolls - here is gone

holy jesus, i forgot how much i loved this song.

h'okay. so saturday i ended up going out to visit my cousins... babies, babies, babies!! hannah is still as cute and tiny as ever, and i got to hold her again. alex isn't talking yet, but he makes a lot of hand gestures and he's just a really sweet kid. i got to hold benjamin, too, who's a couple of months old, maybe? he was really fun cause he can support his head and he's big and cuddly and stuff. hehe. and they also got a new black kitten which was just really cute. mary & todd (parents of alex and benjamin) are moving into town so i'll hopefully get to see them a lot more often. :D

that night i watched transamerica again. i might be addicted. i can't wait for 'zoom' so i can do more staring at kevin zegers. ^^

sunday morning i woke up to the bee guy sucking all the bees out of our wall. it turns out we had 21,000. jeeeez. leah's parents and the neighbors and george were all over and they were eating the honey out of the honeycombs and there were bees everywhere and i was just really grossed out. :/ but the guy is transporting them to somewhere where they're wanted. hahaha.

then around one i went to sarah's to watch the long version of pride and prejudice. it was so sweet and it made me want to be british. hahaha. darcy wasn't nearly as good looking and it wasn't as romantic at the end, but oh well, it was sweet. then i went to julia's house to hang out with her and jeff and whitney. we swam and played jumanji. "in the jungle you must stay until disasters roll away!" lmao. and we talked a lot, too.

today i have a doctor's appointment and i think in the evening we're going to go buy my new camera! yay! i also need to call dan at some point to make plans for later this week, cause i'm going to feel terrible if i don't see him before i leave.

xoxo



29 July 2006, 11:33 AM

where is my mind?
♪: AFI - love like winter

all right. so now i'm a little more alive and i can remember more things from yesterday/last night.

dan and i were the first ones in the basement waiting for the show and we spent a lot of time playing/singing songs. 'twas fun. i took a few pictures of various people that i love... i think the kids show went really well. everybody was focused and things, and nobody screwed up majorly. and i think the audience liked it.

we had half an hour break between the kids show and our show during which i did a lot of running around to do various errands, played a bit of cards, and we had a circle before the performance. john told this big story about how he first met dan cause it's dan's last year as an apprentice. it almost made me cry, but it was too funny for that.

i play piano in the first piece and i nailed it. didn't screw up at all. in fact, i don't think i screwed up in the entire apprentice performance besides starting to sing too early in our song once, but we "mess up" on purpose all the time so i don't think anyone noticed. everyone loved our song so much. and then was pirates, which people also liked, and then our movement piece. apparently, people were really blown away. dan had his head on my shoulder the entire time we were in the clump and afterwords my grandma goes, "he had his head there an awfully long time!" and i said "you were sitting next to his girlfriend!" haha. also dan's dad told me "wonderful job" or something as i was leaving and i was sort of creeped out because he really creeps me out for some reason...? well, i do have one good reason, and then also when he looks at you there's something about his eyes where you can't really tell he's looking at you. i don't know.

the afterparty was just eh. did i say that yet? i got to talk to a few people but yeah... dan had his dad's house to himself for the night (and today) and he was like "you guys should come stay the night." oh my god, i wish we could have actually done that. how much freaking fun would that be? agh. i already told the story of him taking us home... and i'm still kind of feeling the hug i got from him...

he called a few minutes ago and wanted to hang out today, but leah's gone and i don't have parents till one and he's hanging out with rachel s at two, so i don't think it's going to happen. fuck, i hate saying no to that. but what can i do? i guess we're hanging out another time this week though. mmmfff, if it isn't nice to hear his voice on the other end of the line when i answer the phone.

xoxo



28 July 2006, 11:16 PM

a free for all, fuck 'em all
♪: us - of body parts

asdlfjkag;ag landscapes is over. it hasn't set in yet. probably because i'm pretty much okay with it. i'm going to miss the little kids and stuff but it definitely wasn't the incredible experience i had last year and i'm going to see all the people i really care about anyway.

today was nice because we just ran through the show over and over. i like doing that, for some reason. katie and olivia were in my lap a lot. they are so cute. that's all i can remember.

AGH the show went so freaking well. i didn't mess up at all except for one tiny time, and everyone laughed SO HARD at our body parts song/dance, and the last piece was incredible, and i didn't mess up my little piano song and just... ahhhhh. our pile at the end felt so good and we were all just absolutely beaming. and hugging like crazy afterwords.

i enjoyed seeing stephanie scowl in the audience at some points. heh heh. is it bad that i feel so much better when i'm performing with him with her watching than when i'm performing with her with him watching? hey, think about that, it made sense.

the afterparty was eh. not nearly as amazing as last year. but then, what was? we basically sat around and talked about nothing. i hated saying goodbye to grace. she's so freaking adorable and i'm not going to see her for a whole year. :[ dan drove leah and me home and we blasted 'minority' and 'ride with me' with the windows down. he dropped me off first which was kind of disappointing but i still got to say what i wanted to say... "don't randomly start hating me, or anything." and i already typed up the entire conversation (that i could remember) in my lj, so i don't want to type it again, but let me just say that it ended well and i think i feel better now. he has the house all to himself tomorrow so we might be going over there. heh. wow.

i'm going to go upload some pictures now and then go sleep for a very, very long time. i'm going to sleep like a freaking baby.

xoxo



27 July 2006, 8:24 PM

blaming the mood of the music
♪: augustana - boston

i don't want landscapes to be over tomorrow. i mean, i REALLY do, because i need a vacation. but still, i don't want to feel like i wasted the entire time. yeah, idk. it's crazy there with production and stuff. i've realized that all our pieces are incredibly physically demanding and i'm not ready for it. but whatever.

we watched the pre-k and novice performances at noon, and it was really cute. and then i'd seen it so i decided not to go to the performance tonight. i kind of regretted it for a bit but they didn't all go out without me afterwords or anything so yeah.

dan and i got in an almost-fight today and i was pissed for a bit but we ended up ALMOST talking about it and for some reason i felt better, probably because he wasn't all that serious about it. and then he paid more attention to me than usual. who knows, maybe something changed. sometimes i think we just don't know how to deal with each other.

we also finished the choreography for our song. it's going to be quite amusing. i'm really excited for the show tomorrow.

earlier i was in the weirdest mood. it was raining and i wanted to take a walk; well, really i just wanted to get to either montgomery or the playground or just SOMEWHERE, but i didn't want to have the actual walking part. so i ended up pacing around outside and getting cold and wet.

leah's mom just stopped by (well, she's still here) and sarah can't come to cape cod with us after all, because isaac is throwing a fit. it's kind of sad, but we're going to have fun anyway.

xoxo