um hi i'm addicted to this band. i'm like eating up the new music lately. it's just this mood i'm in. but anyway, i need to actually BUY this cd, cause i want to support the band. haha. also, yesterday i downloaded the format's new cd, and that same day adlaz made an update in the the tbs diary about it. how freaking rad is that? ps. the format is really good. kinda carousel-like. odd. but good.

so yeah... yesterday i was supposed to go to jon's graduation party, but nobody else i knew was going. called rachel, she had rehearsal. called leah, she wasn't home. chris just left for some southern state. so i... dun dun dun... ended up calling dan. GOD AWKWARD. i got him while he was driving and we got cut off right after i asked him if i was bothering him, and i couldn't get him back for the longest 5 minutes ever. hahaha. but yeah, he had to... gasp... WORK. how weird. he's got some temporary job at a grocery store or something. idk. and steph wasn't going either. so yeah... i didn't go.

dan is also working with the blue group, along with rachel. i'm pretty sure leah is too, via process of elimination. *sigh* talk about feeling left out. but i'll get over it. and i get to work with rah!!! that'll be so fun, and i'll also get to see them all in the afternoon. so yesh.

tonight i actually did stuff again. how cool. first my family went to a fourth of july picnic that was hosted by someone my dad works with, chad. i'd met him once because he was in 'the boys next door'. he's a pretty crazy guy. but it was sort of fun and i got to meet a lot of mailmen. hehe. then my mom and i went to see 'the devil wears prada' with leah and her mom. i. loved. it. it's another one i'm buying when it comes out. hehe. we went out for icecream afterword, too. i think leah and i are going to see superman tomorrow maybe. i'm excited.

so now i just have to survive until thursday... one of those days i think we're visiting leah's family while they're camping. it'll be cool.

xoxo



29 June 2006, 11:35 AM

something real, and make it timeless
♪: we are scientists - the great escape

okay okay... woowwwwww. :D most of this is copied directly from my LJ/GJ, because i don't feel like retyping it/retelling the story. but... again, wowwww.

basically... TBS CONCERT. asdfasdf this is really long.

sooo, we got to the venue at about 11:30, which is 5 hours early. there were, maybe... 25 people ahead of us in line? good stuff. waiting for 5 hours was pretty much hell, especially because it rained for about 3 of them. we had ponchos, but our legs still got wet and we couldn't sit down or eat or anything.
at one point, i could see into the gates, and i saw eddie! he appeared to be looking right at me, so i waved, but he didn't wave back. he walked away pretty soon after that. but it was exciting. :]

after five hours of hell, with people around us being assholes as usual AND some girl puking on the bench next to us (she was soooo drunk), we finally got in. we ran and managed to get at the VERY left edge of the barricade (they only had the center barricade up then, not the ones that continued down the sides). well, tsa and melissa were against the barricade, and the rest of us were behind them.

a band called punchline played first. they're from pittsburgh, so everybody there liked them. i thought they were extremely average. i didn't take any pictures. haha. i was hanging on to the barricade so i didn't get pushed at all, and i could actually hold whitney and some other people up.
at one point whitney or alicia or somebody poked me and pointed behind my head, and adam was standing up on the side of the stage like right in front of me. i "holy shit!"-ed very loudly, and reached for my camera, but by the time i got it to work (the damn thing is sooooo slow) he was walking in the other direction.

next were the subways. they were very british and i actually liked them a lot. adam came back out and stood on the side, so i watched him for a lot of the show. i watched him smoke a cigarette... that's like a personal experience. hahaha. XD the subways' lead singer was also really cute.

after these guys the girl that had been standing next to me left (she was reeeeally nice & cool) so i took her spot on the second barricade. that was my absolute best spot, and i got to be there for head automatica. zomg, daryl is my new hero. it's just about the best thing ever when he shakes his butt, HAHAHA. i started laughing so much. i loved it. hearing 'beating heart baby' was great. everyone went nuts, but i was cozy on my barricade. hahaha.

so they played for half an hour, and i actually had a lot of fun during that.
next was... aghhhh, angels and airwaves. *sigh* they came out, and the crowd went nuts. and then i discovered... I COULD MAKE MY CAMERA ZOOM IN FARTHER!!!! it's really shitty quality, but still extremely exciting. so basically this band was hell. they played for a full hour and bored me to death. tom is a royal asshole, just like everyone said he would be. also, people were pushing SO much that i got WAY to the left, and i couldn't breathe and i was right in front of the speaker. i was getting a headache and the band's bass was WAY too high. it was just hell. AND the girl behind me was literally beating on my back trying to get to the barricade. it's like... jeez, you're not going to move THROUGH me, back the fuck off. i hit her a few times. haha.

adam came back during this band, too... but seriously EVERY TIME i tried to take a zoomed-in picture of him, someone would get in my way!! a security guard, a band member... it was the most obnoxious thing ever.

i literally shouted "THANK GOD!!!" when AVA was over. i hate them now. honestly. i'm deleting all their stuff except for 'the adventure' and 'distraction' from my ipod.

finally, FINALLY it was time for TBS. they took FOREVER to set up. but it was SO worth it. i moved off the barricade so i could breathe, and i actually had a really great spot.

adam is looking so amazing lately. he's really defined himself. he still swings the mic and stuff, but he does more singing, and he just looks more together overall. i loved the way he talked to the crowd, haha... he was like a southern preacher. i'd never heard him do that before. at one point he goes "i'm getting hot, guys, my shirt's coming untucked... i was trying to look all pretty for you guys... " and i screamed "TAKE IT OFF!!!" as loud as i could. hahaha.

fred was on our side, and he was incredible to watch. i love him so much. he got really into it and came over and sang to us and stuff... i *think* we might've made eye contact? :D

they played (probably not in this order, but this is what i remember): what's it feel like to be a ghost, bonus mosh pt. 2, bike scene, set phasers to stun, makedamnsure, timberwolves at new jersey (i swear to god they must've got complaints and substituted this for twenty-twenty surgery), error operator, the union, my blue heaven, you're so last summer (during this one whitney and i had to hold hands... well, i had to hold her hand, haha, because i/we was/were so excited/shaking so bad), spin ("and on that note, ladies and gentlemen, i invite you to join us and spin."), cute without the e (asdfsagl), liar, and this photograph is proof.

and then... oh god... the encore. adam came out alone and played divine intervention. i knew it was coming, but it was so amazing to see. people had cleared out, and my friends had moved without telling me, haha, so i had a spot all to myself. i cried so much. i felt like a teenybopper, but just... he means so much to me, and it's such a beautiful song.

the last song was a decade under the influence. it was so effing good. i'd say that, makedamnsure and you're so last summer were the best live. they seem to play their singles the best. idk why. anyway, afterwords i ran over to whitney and we hugged so much, and tsa joined in later. god... it was incredible.
we went to buy t-shirts (4 of us got the concert tees with the dates on the back, and whitney got the mic-around-your-neck shirt) and then left, cause we were exhausted and my dad had to drive home and then work the next day. heh. i hate not being a pittsburgh local. :[

we probably could've met them, but i'm actually okay that we didn't, cause being that close to them on stage was like meeting them. haha.

the next day adam updated the site diary and it made me really happy. go look. :]

so yeah. yesterday i did a lot of obsessing and then we took my grandma out to dinner for her birthday. it was okay. y'know. i have a lot of stuff to do today, regarding plans for tomorrow and such.

OH! jan called, and i'm working with the red group for creating landscapes. i'm so effing happy. :D

xoxo



26 June 2006, 8:15 PM

i met my love before i was born
♪: 30 seconds to mars - the kill

yeah, it's been a week again. and i don't even feel like writing now, but tomorrow i know i'm going to have a crapload of things to talk about. so i'd better do this.

i can't remember what i did wednesday. i'm assuming my mom made me clean and stuff all day. and i probably resisted. hm.

thursday we went to erie. we bought a new widescreen tv for the living room. now i can have movie parties. yay! i also bought 3 dvds: almost famous, pride and prejudice, and no direction home, and three books: diary (by chuck palahniuk), long way down (by nick hornby), and the curious incident of the dog in the night time. there was a sale, 3 books for the price of two, and my mom just bought them for me. good grades, i suppose. hehe. after that we went out to dinner and it sucked. a lot.

friday we were supposed to go to new york (state), but no one really felt like going. instead, my dad installed the new tv and we watched some random stuff. in the evening i went with tsa and whitney to see 'nacho libre'. it was just stupid comedy, which is nice sometimes, and i wanted to see it. haha. afterword we took photobooth pictures and then came back to my house to watch some random music dvds on my tv. it was fun.

saturday was pittsburgh, as my pappap's still in the hospital. he has to have a lot more procedures, and he might have an infection, but i still think he's going to be okay. after that we went out for indian food, which i didn't really want, but ish cool, it was good. and i got to watch the end of the soccer game. yay argentina!! :]

on sunday i went to babysit cooper and mary rose for the first time. they're sooo cute, and they were good, for the most part. they fought a bit (they're 2 and 4), but i handled it. and i got $15. yay. haha. later i went to grandpa's with whitney to visit tsa, as she's working there and we haven't visited her yet. it was fun and we should go again. haha. then i went back to whitney's for a little bit and we watched random videos and stuff.

today i haven't done anything except think about how TBS is TOMORROW. i think i might die. we're getting there like 4 hours early, though. so... gosh, wish us luck!!

in other news, my AFI obsesion is back with a vengeance. i can't get them out of my head.

xoxo



21 June 2006, 12:09 AM

get sick, get well, hang around an ink well
♪: bob dylan - like a rolling stone

mmmm, fabulous day. really. my parents are off all week, so they've decided to randomly go places within 2 hours of here. today it was cleveland, to the rock and roll hall of fame. i'd never been, and of course we absolutely had to see the dylan exhibit.

basically, i was in heaven the entire time we were in the museum. the first thing i saw when we went in was jimi hendrix's guitar... and good lord, it got better after that. i was starstruck looking at artifacts. like, the things that stuck with me were kurt cobain's guitar (and hendrix's, of course), janis joplin's glasses, the suit that the guy from the talking heads wore in that one video (i'm so great with names), and an outfit freddie mercury wore. but yeah, i could've spent hours in the one part of the museum. it was unreal.

the dylan exhibit was incredible. it was really comprehensive and educational, and such. i learned a lot about his life, and some trivia and stuff, and we listened to a lot of music. the man was pretty gorgeous back in the day, too. haha, i'm totally smitten. it was hilarious, there was this one picture that looked EXACTLY like dan. it really freaked me out. it was the smile. i want to find it because it's scary.

at the gift shop i bought a bunch of postcards and a t-shirt with the 'definition' of rock and roll on it. then we ate lunch at this amazing vegetarian restaurant. i had falafel (with pita and veggies and cheese) and a peach milkshake. mmmmm, best sandwich i ever ate.

i went straight to joey's going away party at chris's when i got back. dan was therrrreeee and gosh i missed him. but so was stephanie. but anyway. he like flipped out on me for not coming and seeing/hugging him right away when i came in. hmph. we're both such attention whores, i don't know how it'll ever work.

later we were watching forrest gump and from left to right on the couch it was me, dan, jillian, steph. jill really pissed me off. i mean, she can be such a slut, and there are certain things you just don't do when you're sitting between a guy and his girlfriend. even i know that. and then she gets all pissed at joey and me later for being too 'friendly'. whatfuckingever. but yeah, dan and jillian were cuddly. it's hard for me, because i know the way he works... he's physical. i know what he does with everyone else has nothing to do with what he does with me, but sometimes i worry that i'm not as special as i think i am. usually it goes away. so anyway, i kinda sighed and he just moved closer to me and put his leg over mine, you know. we have that silent reassurance thing down pat. i love cuddling with him. he and steph had to leave early, so joey became my headrest/cuddle buddy, but it's not the same. dan and i just, i don't know... fit together. i know that sounds weird, especially cause we're just about the most unlikely people for that, and it sounds like i'm making it up, but it's true. we fit.

i'm going to miss joey so much. he said he'd write, and stuff, but... yeah. *sigh* i hate saying goodbye. i hate endings, period.

i want to see dan again soon. god. i miss him holding me for longer and touching and kissing me randomly and things like that. i mean, it's nice to get things like that from joey (the reason jill flipped?), but i don't feel the same way about him, and joey's a manwhore anyway, and we're obviously not going anywhere. and it just makes me miss dan more.

xoxo



19 June 2006, 9:55 PM

kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep
♪: regina spektor - fidelity

i'm sick of updating this with "i feel crappy" but it's true, i do. it's been really up and down lately. it's great because i'm reading it's kind of a funny story and he and i basically have the same kind of thing wrong with us (different causes, same symptoms), so it's helping me figure myself out. i like it.

anyway, going back a bit, i slept over at abby's thursday night. we went to walmart and bought food, and then we came home and hung out and then took a walk. we walked by canadan's new house. it's humongous. i can't wait to be in it. then we watched 'the 40 year old virgin' (hilarious, but plotless), '50 first dates' (FREAKING ADORABLE), and 'legally blonde' in the morning (so-so). we had the tv on all night and i woke up a few times in the morning and i'd hear the beginnings of videos, but i'd never hear the ends. haha. i'm great at dozing.

that day i slept a lot and then i went and got my hair cut and then to the landscapes benefit show. i'd stopped expecting dan to show up but rachel said he'd called that morning to invite her to the tinnys (i don't think that's how you spell it but WHATEVER), so he's around, at least. then i got my hopes up and got all anxious. he didn't show, of course. i spent the first half working (scooping ice cream) with rachel and rah and trying to tie a cherry stem in a knot with my tongue. yeah, that didn't happen either. then everyone else started to loosen up and we danced. A LOT. my favorite songs ever are 'loveshack', 'twist and shout', and 'SYMPATHY FOR THE DEVIL'. omg, dan c (the guy i interviewed for my shakespeare project, also a professor and father of crazy kids) went up to sing and i was like "OMG! the first time i heard him sing 'sympathy for the devil', i was amazed & i went home and downloaded it and i'm still in love with it." and then they played that and i went NUTS. god, i was the happiest person alive. i can be okay without him.

then i went to tsa's for a little bit... abby and melissa were there for a bit, and alicia and julia and whitney as well. we played truth-or-would-you-rather, and stuff. 'twas fun. i wish i could've slept over but my mom wanted me to sleep, after abby's and all.

i can't remember what i did saturday. hahaha. how pathetic. it's totally blank in the morning and the afternoon, but i ended up going to see the hot air balloons in the evening. it was really fun. there were so many tourists and stuff. haha, i actually got to be proud of living here. i stole whitiney from her parents and we sat with leah's family. i really liked the balloons. afterword we went back to leah's and ate icecream and played badminton. leah and i went to the playground afterword and just talked a lot. it was great.

sunday was father's day. we went to the balloons again in the morning. i brought my green tea. i'm becoming addicted. :/ but it's soooo damn good. after that we went to pittsburgh, because my pappap (dad's dad) is in the hospital. he had to have a pacemaker put in cause he has a bad heart. he's totally fine though, doing really well. i drank an iced chai latte (♥♥♥ - i am such a tea addict!!) and visited with my relatives and watched some of the brazil/australia game. brazil are insanely amazing, even though i was rooting for the aussies.

after that we went to lunch in squirrel hill and then did a tiny bit of shopping. that's where i bought it's kind of a funny story, and i also picked up a copy of the perks of being a wallflower. yay! we got back later and i called leah and we went to jo anne's cause they were having a sale. we got TONS of ribbon and came home and sewed it. she drove home. it was exciting. apparently she and her dad were really nervous but i was totally clueless and talking a lot. haha. oops. but anyway, we're making a shirt and a skirt, and i used leftover ribbon for headbands. i'm addicted to headbands now too. they look so cute on me, i think.

today my mom decided we need to clean the whole house. we had a few fights about that. and i had a panic attack before we had a storm cause i thought my mom was gone and i almost lost the cats and i had to hurry and shut all the windows. but i'm okay now.

finally i went to meet the kids i'm going to start babysitting. the whole family is sooo nice, and the kids are adorable but CRAZY. they're 2 and 4 and all they do is run around. pretty much in circles. but i don't mind. :] the little girl is unbelievably cute (she's the 2-year-old); her name's mary rose and the boy is cooper. i'm starting sunday... yay!

this was HUGE. i really need to start updating every day. i'm so lazy, though.

ps. today i made a list of all the albums i have on my computer, for music trading communities. it's right here. i'm proud! i'm also proud that i got the username 'mindchanger'. haha.

xoxo