it has NOT been three days. sorry. sigh. nothing much has really happened, though. we're easing back into school, and i don't have dance this week.

yesterday was improvvvv. it was pretty sweet. the college students aren't back yet, so it was just me, emily, julia and a few adults that i actually know and like. namely rachel's mom, the guy that did my kitchen and plays tons of instruments and is freaking cool, and my parents' friends (who -- side note -- also think dan and i are dating, haha, wow). i was experimenting with one of the exercise/stability balls. i did not know my body was capable of a lot of the things it did. haha. and i wore my amazing new dance pants. OH! for landscapes this year (side note: the theme is energy, which was my idea!) they're splitting apprentices up into two groups of twelve, divided by age and experience. SCORREEEEE!!! that will be so effing nice.

today we took this online survey thing. "how many times have you done drugs in the past month?" that sort of thing. i should have BSed on it so we'd get all kinds of free funding cause they'd think we were violent druggies. hahaha. yes. speaking of, in health chris and i have decided that i am a pregnant, bullemic, vegan chef who is an ex-body builder and was raped, will soon become a whore, and runs 3 meth labs in her backyard while doing heroin. we've covered every unit!

we gave jon a ride today to wherever he goes after school. i didn't quite get it. haha. he missed his bus and he was like "guess i'm walking" and i kind of offered him a ride, even though he's never met my mom. heh. it wasn't awkward, though, cause we talked the whole time. PHEW!

i was going to pop in on rumpelstiltskin tonight, cause i want to see people, especially stephanie, but chris said i would probably get yelled at cause cathy (the director) doesn't like other people being there. oh well. i read the second act and it's going to be quite awesome. but i'm a little scared to possibly see dan in tights. ahahaha.

xoxo



02 January 2006, 6:16 PM

always look on the bright side of life
♪: jimmy eat world - disintegration

ermmmmawgagskguguh. today was so weird. but i'll start with yesterday, eh?

rachel called me at... 12:15? i went over there at 1:30. leah, rachel, emily, sarah, dan, me. guess who i cuddled with during both movies? *sigh* i am going to become addicted. i already can't watch movies without thinking of him. anyway, we watched 'young frankenstein' and 'life of brian'. i loved both of them. both hilarious. especially the end of 'life of brian'... which explains why i've had 'always look on the bright side of life *whistles*' stuck in my head allll day. but yeah. um. so dan and i talked once about how we'd date in college. i said maybe if he was taller... which is entirely untrue (i'd date him anyway... shhh). but yeah, he brings that up sometimes. but hardly ever. and he doesn't tease. you know? so yeah, i was a step down from him on rachel's front steps, so he was a little taller than me, and i go "hey, i'm normal sized!" and he smiles all.. i don't know, knowingly? but not in a teasing/jerky way? and says "i guess i'll just have to grow that much in college then, hm?" god, that made me happy.

so yeah. i felt amazing last night and this morning. woke up to 'stay on my side tonight' which is my new obession. got to school... talked to rachel... felt like shit. she's confused about dan again (no, she doesn't like him, but she's not always happy with him, i guess?) and it.. depressed me. chris does the same thing. every time they both say negative things about him, even though they're COMPLETELY unrelated to me (they both tell me they can tell how much he loves me) it depresses the shit out of me, because i feel like i should feel negatively about him... and i don't. at all. in fact... i'm not really sure how i feel about him anymore. THERE. I SAID IT. fuck. but it's definitely not bad. at all. *SIGH* i hate being predictable.

i cheered up. and i still feel pretty good now. it's just dangerous when i'm left alone to think about things. i need social interaction (and music). speaking of, i should have 3 band t-shirts arriving this week. ^^ i'm now in the mood for some fanfiction and maybe some peppermint stick ice cream?

xoxo



01 January 2006, 12:23 PM

...and i don't feel any different
♪: motion city soundtrack - let's get fucked up and die

yo sup. happy 2006!! i now have to re-archive all my old entries... day-um.. i should probably make a nice new layout, too. i actually don't feel any different about this year. i wasn't excited at midnight and i'm not excited now. but ish okay.

i spent all of saturday helping my mom get ready for the party. i cleaned a lot and cooked macaroni. i febreezed the crap out of my room and i had to leave the fan on and the door open for, like, hours. haha. it was funny. see, you can't smell the stuff at first, so you spray lots, and then it's like WHAM! so yeah... i paced around a lot after that. olivia came first. then dan. so for awhile it was just me, olivia and dan. quite awkward. slowly more of my friends and more of my parents' friends started to show up... it got CRAZY after awhile. there were SO many people here! my house seemed so small. at one point we had olivia, leah, rachel, emily, whitney, teresa, katherine, and an abundance of small children in my room (dan left early to go to chris's). it got really hot. we played lots of games. most of the small children cleared out but emma and maja stayed. they are so freaking cute. maja is my favorite mini ever. she loved my camera. teehee. i was afraid to venture downstairs cause there were SO many people, but my parents said it was fun. i barely ate dinner, and i skipped lunch completely, but i wasn't hungry.

we left a little before ten to go to chris's. my first new year's away from my family.. awwww. haha, ok, when i got to chris's i went to sit on the couch with dan and we started cuddling and didn't move for about 3 hours after that. lol. i felt kind of bad, because i didn't get to see anyone else... but i need my dan time and he was sort of on top of me and not moving, anyway. he's being so flirtatious and weird lately. it was throwing me off and then i got used to it. we went through this big thing -- i don't remember it exactly -- about how he wasn't allowed to call me hot (i sorta flipped on him, haha, like said, i don't remember exactly how it came about) but i could call him hot... i don't remember ever doing this, so then he tried to get me to, and i wouldn't, so he told me to whisper it, and i wouldn't. heh. and then later i was like, "psst... come here. i have to whisper something." and then i whispered, "i think you're hot." haha, i just had to share that. it was fun. we also all watched 'high fidelity', up until the end cause it was almost time for the ball to drop. i've read 'about a boy', so i liked the movie. i want to see the end.

i wasn't excited at all when the ball dropped. haha. 2006... it's sort of weird, eh? but i dunno, maybe it hasn't hit me yet. they say how you spend new year's eve/midnight is the way you're going to spend the whole year. last year, leah and i watched garden state. this year i *did* spend a lot of time with leah, and a lot of time watching garden state... looks like i'm going to spend a lot of time with dan on my lap this year. haha.

today we're all hanging out at rachel's and watching 'young frankenstein', je pense. my... 10th movie in 8 days? yikes.

xoxo



29 December 2005, 8:23 PM

i'd offer you my hand
♪: saves the day - nightingale

sup, new addiction. haha. I LOVE SAVES THE DAY. at least their 'stay what you are' album. i'm quite excited for their new album.. as well as FREAKING TBS and AFI. yeah.

umm so i didn't go to bed until 1:30 and i woke up at 11:30 because i had killer cramps. ughhhh. i really wanted to sleep longer. but i will tonight. i think i only sleep long/well if i go to bed at an ungodly hour. otherwise i wake up in the morning and i'm still sleepy but i can't go back to sleep. *le sigh*

i got into a 3-way msn conversation with dan and leah right before i had to shower to go to rachel's. it was a blast and it made me quite happy. and then i went to rachel's and we watched 'pink panther strikes again'. after leah and emily's friend sarah joy left, we watched 'monsters, inc.', which i hadn't seen yet. BOO IS THE CUTEST THING EVER. i loved it. and i also realized i've watched 7 movies in the past 5 days. HAH.

i also knitted a lot. my tank top is almost done. i just have to sew it. and then i'm going to make two bags... YAY for actually making stuff for myself! i LOVE giving stuff away, but sometimes i have to be selfish, you know?

xoxo



29 December 2005, 12:35 AM

and i hope, your majesty, that you like your position
♪: disney - heffalumps and woozles

heyo. so you know how i went shopping yesterday? yeah, well, today my mom had to go to return stuff in erie so i did some more shopping. hahaha. she convinced me to get another pair of gap jeans, and i also got another short sweater. but it's ok, cause i get a clothing allowance now, so it came out of my own money. i don't feel so bad. i also got some socks and underwear. OH! and dance pants! they're the really swooshy ones that i've been wanting FOREVER, AND they're black capris, which i REALLY needed. on the way up i listened to death cab's 'plans', which i'm growing more and more fond of. on the way back i couldn't stop listening to saves the day. i really want to buy one of their t-shirts, but i can't figure out where to get them. 'at your funeral' pretty much gives me chills and i love 'nightingale' almost as much. i dunno... they don't have that amazing of a sound but they do what they do SO well. i'm also going to buy the tbs t-shirt with the hot air balloon.

this evening i went to leah's. rachel., olivia, julia, justin, and chris were there. i gave chris his hat and i think he really liked it. first we watched 'madagascar', which was freaking adorable. i think i want to buy it. then we ate latkes... my third time this week, so i only had 2. but they were great. after that we played 'apples to apples', or something like that, which is a really awesome... game thing. i loved it. i don't know to explain it, though. and THEN we played dance dance revolution! the microphone wasn't working but we danced a lot. and get this... 'pain' (yes, by JEW) was on there. lmao. i had to sing it. it was quite exciting.

i took leah's disney cds and i'm uploading them to my itunes as i type. and OMG we might be doing something as the fabulous five tomorrow or friday. freaking yay.

xoxo