heyo! so i didn't get to write christmas eve after all, but i was quite busy. went to leah's to exchange gifts with her, rachel, emily, and rah. leah knitted us these cute little animal handwarmer things. rachel got me earrings and a necklace. emily gave me a book. rah made us bracelets. 'twas very awesome. and everyone loved the stuff i gave them... especially leah and her wellies. we went to church, but the unitarian church, and i liked the service a lot. and then we went out to my uncle's house. baby alex is so.freaking.cute. he was in a good mood and running around and hugging everyone and stuff. we gave him a bath in the laundry tub and i played hide and seek with him. *giggle*

christmas was pretty amazing. i got a *lot* of little things from my parents... but the highlights were a color printer/scanner/copier (which is really for all of us), HP and the half-blood prince on cd, two dvds: charlie and the chocolate factory and hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy, the JEW 'stay on my side tonight' EP, a JEW t-shirt and DVD (but they haven't come yet), a tape adaptor for my ipod, and two t-shirts: one says 'i love my country, but i think we should start seeing other people' and the other says 'treehugger'. they're so me. XD then we went to my aunt's house. she was crazy stressed but i got a lot of clothes and things from them. i'm most excited about this cute little half-sweater.

on the way back we picked up amy!! she's cute and amazing. haha. we stayed over at leah's that night so we had latkes and were jewtastic. we watched this tape of funny commercials and then 'what's eating gilbert grape', and slept till 11:30 the next day. wow. then we called some people to go ice skating but only chris could come... he was going to 'king kong' at 2 so we went with him. he brought us eye patches and we took photo booth pictures. they're great. i *hated* king kong. i could tell it was really well done, but it was just SO intense. and actually SCARY for me, not like horror movies, but almost realistic. the island scene, mostly. but adrian brody made some parts quite nice. :)

that night leah had to go to dinner somewhere else so amy and i stayed home and burned cds and stuff. she made me this crazy awesome mix cd and i love all of it. and then we called rachel and emily and watched charlie and the chocolate factory. leah got back toward the end and we discovered 'learn the oompa loompa dance' in the special features... omg, you guys, it was SO FUN. next movie party, we're so taking advantage of that. then we watched a bit of hitchhiker's. and then r+e had to leave and we were tired so we went to bed.

this morning we went out to breakfast and then took amy halfway home. we met at the outlets so i got to shopping with my GAP and american eagle money, which i also got for christmas. i got jeans that fit me better than any others i've ever owned, a pink sweater, and two long-sleeved striped shirts. leah was with me and we went down to journey's, too, where she found some crazycool socks. and then back to AE, where i got a striped tank top, which is amazing. i'm quite spoiled and content.

tomorrow is MADAGASCAR party! and i'm SO loving vacation. hope everyone's holiday was great...

xoxo



23 December 2005, 9:42 PM

your attention gives me tension
♪: van morrison - sweet thing

the show didn't go so well. the dances i was in were amazing (that sounds so stuck up, but it wasn't just me. i'm in the oldest dances.)... the snowflake (ballet) dance was the best i've ever done it. i think everyone else thought they did well, too. modern went pretty well too, even though i was shaking. but all the little kids screwed up numerous times. a mouse tripped over another mouse and the presents forgot their dance. liz was going nuts. she was really upset afterwords. and the finale/bow was to the christmas song overtop of pachelbel's canon. when we were rehearsing i was totally making fun of my mom cause i knew she was going to cry, and she did, but it turned out that *i* cried. haha, the canon makes me bawl my eyes out. it's strange. and it was way embarassing, cause i was on stage.

thursday at school i played santa and handed out most of my chrismas presents. i think everybody liked them. abby gave me the most amazing scarf... it has mittens built in!! i felt bad cause i didn't get her anything. :/ so yeah, during 5th period i was gonna go to jill's room, but nobody was there to meet me, so i just went to a different lunch. haha. i felt so badass. and *then* we went to jill's room and played dreidel and balderdash.

that evening was chris's birthday bash. like 23 people... and all but about 4 of my favorite people in one place. SCORE! we watched 'dogma', which i loved. but we didn't get to finish it cause the dvd died.

leah, jillian, donnelle, teresa and i left in the middle to go to brendan's viewing. brendan was a kid that went to my elementary and high school and he died playing the choking game this week. it freaked me out so much that the first day i knew i didn't even talk about it. but anyway, it was SO awful, you guys. i hate that environment to begin with, and then all the jocks and stuff were there, and they were all crying. i didn't cry. i couldn't. instead, my body decided to have a panic attack. i was dry sobbing and i couldn't breathe and i couldn't talk. i tried to talk to his family and my voice just didn't work. it was so horrible. i won't even talk about seeing him in the coffin. i wasn't any stronger than anyone else; i just dealt with it differently. but they thought i was stronger so i supported everyone while they were bawling. we came back and the whole party got really quiet. i didn't know what to do, so i supported and gave hugs and then went to talk to jon and kate, who weren't crying.

after everyone cheered up we started to party again. and i started hanging out with jon. he and i and rachel s, kate, joey, becca (joey's girlfriend), and samantha made up a game that was sort of like calvin ball (from calvin and hobbes, which jon and i and who knows who else adore), so we called it hobbes ball. but jon was making up all the rules, and he didn't want to be called hobbes, so we called it blank ball. teehee. so much fun. after that we played a card game called 'mao' which was hella complicated. more making up rules as you go along. then joey left and i went to sit with jon, leah and jillian. sat on jon's lap. yay. chris says i 'made progress'... cause jon was actually flirting back by the end of the night. um yay. that's amazing.

after mostly everyone left i started playing scrabble with rachel, joey and josh. turns out joey thought dan and i were dating. LMAO. and i told sarah this tonight and she said ellie and david's mom thought we were, too. that could be bad. haha. i wonder who else does. "hi, i'm annie. do you, by any chance, think i'm dating dan w? because i'm not."

today i slept in and then i went out to jo anne's to get paint and picture frames for my parents' christmas presents. i'm painting picture frames and putting a picture of me in there. they're pretty cute. i knitted a lot, too, and then went to rah's family's holiday gathering thing. 'twas fun. we're getting together tomorrow to exchange gifts.

OH! amy also called me today... we're picking her up sunday on the way home from my aunt's. YAY!!!!! she's staying for a few days. i'm so freaking excited. so i won't be able to write for a few days cause it's christmas and then amy. but i'll try to write tomorrow.

xoxo



20 December 2005, 8:34 PM

you are my sunshine
♪: blind melon - no rain

so i suck. it's been an entire week... but days pass and then i have more and more to update about and i just don't feel like it. so i'm going to remember as far back as i can.

thursday we had early dismissal. i can't figure out why. the roads weren't THAT bad. but i was in band, which also gets middle school announcements, and there were like 10 of us in there, and they announced in the middle school that we were getting out early. big, macho guys running around and hugging each other. it was amazing. and it took us 3 minutes tops to spread it to the entire school. everyone thought it was a rumor but i was THERE so i got to go "ha ha!" haha. yeah. so i came home and did nothing. well, i knitted. finished my aunt's hat and started chris's.

friday night was awful. abby saw leah out with dan. i was confused. called leah when she got back. he asked *just her* to the movies. he and stephanie are doing really well right now. wtf. i wouldn't care if he didn't constantly talk about how hot and awesome leah is. so i cried. a lot. and rach and i were philosophically depressing again. and i told chris everything and he made me feel better. and then dan got online. and i basically confronted him and he made me feel better.. he knew that leah didn't have anything to do that night, and quite honestly, it doesn't even both er me anymore that he's after her, because (and chris helped me with this) he and i have an incredible friendship, and i'm so happy to have that. even if he does like leah best, it's only because he sees potential in dating her. and basically i ended up telling dan everything. exactly how i feel about him, and lots of other things, and i got the right response. he told me he misses summer so much. you have no idea how much that meant to me. ♥

so saturday the sun came out for the first time in about a month. it felt so good. i had to go to cookies and milk rehearsal. it went well. and we were ready. that day i did my christmukkah shopping and got everybody cool stuff. i's excited. that night was tsa's christmas party. it was a freaking blast. we exchanged gifts and danced and watched green day and stuff. i got lots of crrrraaaaazzzzyyy pictures.

didn't go to bed until an ungodly hour and had to get up the next day at noon for cookies and milk. it was so cute. we did well at both shows... and sold cds... at the end i ran out to sell cds, which was good, because everyone else either forgot or just didn't care to help me. that sort of pissed me off. but it's ok now.

don't remember anything about yesterday... except that i didn't do my lab cause i thought i'd left it at school. turns out it wasn't there, either. completely gone. *sigh* so to make a long story short i had to take justin's and copy it. i just had a really bad luck morning. i was afraid i'd break my ankle tonight at dress rehearsal. but i didn't.

tonight was my mom's staff dinner. i only got to be there for a little while cause i had to get ready and go to dress rehearsal for our christmas dance show. i hate the way my snowflake leotard looks on me. it's the most unflattering thing ever. but i get to wear all black for modern. i have this thing lately where i shake whenever i'm performing, so i sort of don't do it as well as i could. but i think it looks fine. dan was there, cause of steph and maybe us a little? i have really awful timing. i turned around right as he came to say bye to us, and turned back around as he was walking away. *sigh* i'll probably see him thursday though. chris's birthda y party, dontcha know.

i am sooooooo tired. *sigh* sleeeeep. but first, french homework. and i haven't eaten dinner but i'm not hungry.

xoxo



13 December 2005, 9:40 PM

i aim to be your eyes
♪: the juilana theory - if i told you this was killing me (live)

wow, um, sup tuesday. yeah, saturday night was my dance show. it went pretty well. i mean, i did everything right. it just wasn't the best time i'd ever done it. i was pretty much shaking the entire time. haha. afterword i got to talk to jc for awhile and apparently he's dating some german royalty. lol. i love & miss him so much!! i didn't feel like partying with drunk college kids afterword so i went home. and that's it.

slept till 11 sunday morning, then went to cookes & milk (children's dance concert) rehearsal, then 'scrooge'. saw some kids afterword that i love, then got in a fight with my mom. cried. worked on english paper. end of sunday.

monday i started my exercise program. running and crunches and things. i feel amazing. and i knitted some (ew, how nw pa). and i had a piano lesson. i also dug into some stuff about 'brokeback mountain' and i'm on a major jake gyllenhaal obsession now. haha. i have a picture of him taped to the back of my assignment book and like everyone loves it. 'tis nice.

aujourd'hui some funny stuff happened.. rah was talking about the iraq elections today, and she was all angry and stuff, and election came out 'erection'... HAHA it was so great. AND we were playing this game where you make words, and the word rachel made was 'boned'. lmao. perfect. and then we painted and i painted chris's nose red. and he washed it off.

mike pissed me off in french, but health was fun. we giggled over jake. ok then i was walking outside & i saw joey on the way and he goes "hey gorgeous" (WOAH, mega self-esteem booster, haha i love him so much) so i'm all giddy and floaty and i suddenly notice that i've walked right into the middle of a fight. hahaha. it was a couple of freshmen just wailing on each other... kind of funny, actually, but i was a little worried they were gonna fall into me. there was just this big circle around them and i was like on the inside. MY FIRST HIGH SCHOOL FIGHT! hahaha yay. so i was telling everyone about it out by the buses and acting pretty badass. pretty funny. oh yeah, jon is cute.

tonight was ballet and I CAN ACTUALLY DO THE WHOLE DANCE NOW EVEN THE REALLY HARD PART OMGZ. WHICH IS GOOD BECAUSE OUR PERFORMANCE IS NEXT WEDNESDAY. SO MANY PERFORMANCES!! SO MANY REHEARSALS!! SO MUCH CAPS LOCK!!

xoxo



10 December 2005, 1:22 PM

i'm not exactly sure what i should say
♪: jimmy eat world - over

wow, i have officially danced every night this week. i'm sorry... that's pretty much all that i've devoted my time to. haha. so i'll rewind to wednesday night. i had jazz. i sucked because i'm SO tired from cheri's dance, so we were doing these jump turns and i just couldn't get my legs up. stephanie and i talked for awhile and she gave me two hugs :) dan was there rehearsing and he kept peeking his head in the door... it was cute, and slightly distracting... class ended half an hour early so i stayed and watched dan's (and geoff's and lee's, and logan and larrah were there too) rehearsal. it's this 'history of america: abridged' thing. freaking hilarious... i was the only person in the audience so of course they were interacting with me. dan spit his gum out at me once. ew. but anyway... crisis that's funny now but wasn't at all then: my mom came to pick me up and the lights were off in the studio and she couldn't find me, so she called my dad and asked if i was home, and he said no, and apparently they both panicked. but obviously i came out eventually and she found me and everything was ok. haha, their nerves aren't on their last ends...

thursday i took my geom & chem tests and they were both very easy, and it made me happy. that night we had tech and it actually ended up not going very long. i had modern beforehand and our dance looks amazing. i's happy. and that's all i remember.

yesterday was enrichment... philosophy was much better for some reason. it was the highlight of my day. besides shea having 300 dollars to spend at lunch and buying everyone ice cream... i didn't eat any, but it was still funny. i also... dun dun dun... pulled a muscle, possibly a hamstring, in dance. i could barely walk for the rest of the day without it hurting, so i was REALLY worried because my BIG dance performance is TONIGHT. it got better the more i moved, and now it's almost completely better. and when i danced last night it didn't hurt WHILE i was dancing; just afterword. so yeah, it'll be ok.

yesterday in the middle of english rachel and i got into a big deep conversation... so i was like "come over after school tomorrow and i'll show you garden state." because it's taught me so much about life and what we were talking about. and she loved it almost as much as i do... it was the 9th time i'd seen it. hahaha. after that i went to whitney's birthday party for an hour. i can finally talk about the freaking scarf!! i put so much work into it and she loved it and it made me really happy. but i still sort of want to keep it. haha. so then i had to leave, and i didn't think i'd be long, but i ended up being like 2 and a half hours. ugh, it was supposed to be dress rehearsal, but it ended up being like tech. most of the time i was just sitting around doing nothing and i just wanted to get out of there. blah. haha. but it was okay.. i feel ready for the dance now and i came back to whitney's for an hour.

so tonight is this performance and then it will be ALL OVER and i'll get to BREATHE until next weekend when i have another performance and the week after that when i have a third. but then it's REALLY all over. *breathes*

xoxo