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 13 September 2005, 9:34 PM positive friction ♪: taking back sunday - the union hmm... last couple of school days haven't been that exciting. not much to tell, really. joey can't go to harvest with rachel cause it's other annie's 18th birthday party. jerk. haha. but as far as i know jon's still coming with me. we have a million people going dress shopping on sunday... it kind of intimidates me... i'd rather go in a smaller group, but all of a sudden everyone's like "i'm coming with you, ok?" jeez. also saturday night is teresa's birthday party. those are always fun. today after school was this big festival downtown. lots of food. but i didn't eat anything. we watched the jazz band/mashapella/string ensemble performance... which was basically watching mashapella and talking to them when they weren't performing and pretending to watch the other two groups. hung out with lots of people i like, then went upstairs to do the furniature thing. it came out pretty cool. afterwords was the first ballet class of the year. i saw steph and hugged the crap out of her. i love her and i can see us being really good friends. she smelled like dan. it was hilarious and weird at the same time. i give up... i fucking miss him. anyway. ballet was really good. i'm being a lot more social and i like dance a lot more. improv tomorrow and modern wednesday. yay. xoxo 11 September 2005, 12:28 PM just leave me hanging there, gasping for air ♪: the juliana theory - august in bethany lyyyyyyyyyk omg. i feel generally crappy at the moment. if i didn't mention it, yesterday my cold or allergies or whatever the fuck it is was going nuts. i took a sudafed before going to the movies, but it wore off pretty quickly. teresa, julia, chris and i went to see 'mr and mrs smith'. chris was actually supposed to go see 'the exorcism of emily rose', but he ditched those people and went with us cause "we're more fun and he didn't really want to see it". lol, i feel kinda bad, but i didn't force him to come with us or anything. hahaha. anyway, the movie was pretty good... a little hard to follow at the beginning, and i'm not that crazy into action movies anymore, but i liked it. and the new theater is awesomexcore to the max. 10 theaters, comfortable seats, bigger screens, an arcade/lobby... mm, lovely. also i'm mega into AIM again, and last night i talked to chris and jon for about two hours. chris told me so many things... like things he said he'd only tell me, which made me feel really special. and again, glad that i'm a secret keeper. also jon said going to harvest with me would be "a blast", and he really does want to go with me.. although he was surprised because "no one ever asks him to anything". psssh, i find that so hard to believe. he also told chris (chris sent me the convo) that he's looking forward to going with me, so he's not just being nice. thank freakin god. he's got a "girlfriend", but she's one of those... myspace girlfriends. seems like he really likes her, though. it actually doesn't bother me because the most i could ever expect would be to be friends with him, anyway, so going to a dance with him is already a huge bonus. i hope dan hasn't figured out that i'm avoiding him. i definitely didn't talk to him on MSN at all... and i pretty much always do... and then the second email he sent me was really short and to-the-point and i didn't know what to make of it. i feel crappy right now physically because of this cold. i took more sudafed, but i'm sick to my stomach and i don't want to do anything. i'm also bored out of my mind, and i need to hang out with girl friends really badly. blahhhh. ps. it's september 11. as always, take a little time to remember, think, pray... whatever. just don't let it be forgotten. xoxo 10 September 2005, 4:11 PM am i only dreaming? ♪: jimmy eat world - the world you love ahhh. yesterday when i talked to chris we were talking about dan for awhile. because i missed dan. and chris... told me some stuff. and it definitely wasn't the first time i'd heard things about dan. so i got worried, even more than i have been. i don't feel like i can trust dan as much as i have previously... but maybe it will all be ok when i see him. but here's the problem, and the reason i'm going on about this now: i figured out that i just need some time away from him to figure things out, and i'm kind of sick of him at the moment anyway... but he just sent me like the sweetest email i've ever read. GOD that's so frustrating, because now i feel terrible, even though i haven't been rude to him or anything and he has no idea that i'm feeling any differently. i still feel awful though. :/ the football game last night was really fun, even though we lost 48-0, lmao. i had fun with everybody... they're all making fun of me because i'm being so dorky about jon (i'm not talking about him all the time; i'm just kind of on a permanent high), but they're saying i'm "so cute", too. so it's ok... i know i'm not annoying everybody. anyway we made olivia ask this guy jeff to harvest... he said he was going with somebody, but we were all so proud of her (and she was proud of herself) for asking him that it was all good. abby, teresa and me walked by adam and brian for awhile... abby was flipping out cause she doesn't know what brian's going to say about going with her to harvest. i feel so free. this morning i woke up feeling pretty sick again. sniffeling and stuff. i don't think it's going to be bad... but i'm exhausted, too. isaac's bar mitzvah was at 10. we were almost late. but it was fun... isaac's adorable, and the service didn't bore me at all. plus i got to hang out with all my favorite people. tonight i think i'm going to the movies, but there isn't really anything i want to see... i just want to go soooo badly and see it. :D xoxo 09 September 2005, 5:43 PM i didn't know that the words you said to me meant more to me than they ever could you ♪: counting crows - mr. jones yeahhhh so i had a really terrible morning but my friends are amazing so it got much better. basically i was missing summertime a lot, and getting all nostalgic, and on the bus i just felt like crying. then i found out that i didn't make student council, which was a bummer... and mr. scott was being a jerk in history. hayden came in, and hayden's ultra-liberal, so they were getting into it. scott went on this big anti-liberal rant... i mean, i honestly don't care, he can think what he wants to think, but he acts like nobody else can have an opinion. it drives me crazy. after that i had gym and basically we talked the whole period. chris told me it was impossible for someone to hate me, so that's not why i didn't make student council. then brandon sat on me. it was fun. soooooooo i decided to go through with asking jon to harvest. i caught him before lunch and asked if he wanted to sit at our table... he said sure, because his lunch table sucked anyway. so he sat with us, and after a little bit i asked him if he had a date, and he said no, and i asked if he wanted to go with me, and he said sure. so yeah... i'm kind of ecstatic. lol. it's not even that big of a deal, but i'm just happy, cause i definitely like him, and i'm proud of myself for asking him. it was actually pretty easy. we talked all the rest of lunch and he came and talked to me out by the buses, too, so it's not all awkward or anything. also rachel is going with joey, so i'm not the only one taking a senior, plus we can all hang out together. :) after school i went down to the dance studio for a meeting about tuesday. there's an art exhibit at the market house, and we're going to be part of it as dancers. it's gonna be pretty cool and i'm excited. so in about half an hour abby's going to be here and we're meeting some people at the football game. funfun. also tomorrow is isaac's bar mitzvah (i didn't get the shirt done but leah said it's worth it to even have it a couple of days late) and then i'll probably go to the NEW MOVIE THEATER, lykomg. xoxo 08 September 2005, 3:54 PM wake me up when september ends ♪: counting crows - colorblind so basically all that i've got on my mind right now is harvest. goddd, it's crazy... it seems like it's all that's on everyone's minds. i really wish that girls didn't have to ask guys... even though it puts the power in my hands... rachel wants to go with joey. she was going on about this when justin was RIGHT THERE... i felt so bad. i think joey would go with her but i'd love to see her and justin go. me, on the other hand.. i really want to go, but only if i can get a date. i'm thinking of jokingly asking jon, just playing around, like, "i think you should go to harvest with me." and if he says yes... then hey. *laughs* like that'll happen, though. i'm honestly not expecting it to, but he's the type of person i can joke around with anyway, so i've got nothing to lose. i asked chris who i should go with (can't go with him cause he's already got like four dates, haha) and after much debate he said dan... that might be weird... but you know what i want right now, so much? to be able to tell people (and dan himself) that i miss him without ANYONE making something extra out of it. so let's see.. did anything else exciting happen today? we sat with joey at lunch. i wanted to sit with jon too but he had to sit outside and... OH YEAH! today was the voting for student council representatives. i want to be on student council this year... chris and i both ran.. teresa said everybody made it last year, but still, i'm worried that chris will and i won't. it'd make me sad. i voted for chris, myself and julia. and i talked to jon afterwords and he said he was trying to get people to vote for chris and me. hehe. tonight i have to make the t-shirt for isaac's bar mitzvah. like... soon. cause it's saturday. and then tomorrow i think i'm going to the football game and shizzle. yup. xoxo |