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 17 July 2005, 5:21 PM it rips my life away, but its a great escape ♪: all-american rejects - move along so, what have i been up to? friday was a really great day at landscapes, and swimming was okay. i really didn't do much; just hung out with jill and jon {r} in the deep end. yeah. afterword i made a quick turnaround at home and then went to willy wonka with whitney, julia, teresa, and alicia. it was HILARIOUS and i'm probably going to see it again and buy it. johnny depp is officially superman; he can do anything. we went to whitney's and slept over... stayed up til like 3:30 in the morning and got up at 6:30 {julia led us into long conversations after she talked in her sleep... hilarious}. then we dressed up and went to get HBP. jumping ahead, i finished reading it today. it's my favorite harry potter book yet and maybe my favorite book ever. i can't really say anything, yet... but once it's been awhile and everyone's finished i'll talk about what i loved about it. yesterday i was completely exhausted, having only slept 3 hours the night before. it was erin's graduation party, and julia and teresa and i sat and read harry potter half the time. i didn't end up staying all day or sleeping over, because i was SO exhausted. i did go to album, but it wasn't much fun because i had nobody to sit with and dan isn't much fun when he's stressed {they were having light problems and he was filming the show that night}. i was also completely dead... and i slept last night! YAHOO! i went to the beach with my parents today. of course, it stormed, and my parents were driving me completely nutzoid. i sat on the beach and read the rest of HP. it started raining again at the perfect time, and when i was finished, i ran and jumped in the lake in the rain. it was a lot more perfect and beautiful than i make it sound. i'm still pretty tired... and i hope i can sleep tonight... xoxo 14 July 2005, 8:03 PM i used to live alone before i knew you ♪: i can make a mess like nobody's business - positively 4th street (!!!!) i got upset last night but today was good again. i won't talk about that much, but basically i got frustrated about a lot of things and "took it out on my mom" and she got mad. and also told me 6 thousand things i have to do. and i got mad. i told her that i can't ACT happy if i'm unhappy. i just can't. i also went to CL knitting club. i wanted to finish my tank top for tomorrow, since it's 'wear the color of your group day' and my tank top is red, but there's no way i'll finish it. i am REALLY close though. we 'elite apprentices' decided to wear pink anyway. i said today was good... i meant really good. i did have to yell at janessa a couple of times, and i swear she was being bad just to make me mad... i've had the kid four years in a row and i hate to be mean, and she KNOWS she can get away with stuff. but i really got mad today and stepped it up a bit. rofl, rachel and dan and leah and me were TOTAL slackers today... and i spent all afternoon with them, so if you don't like one of them, STOP READING, because that's what the rest is about. all we did during music and writing was "work on our song"... which ended up being talking and making fun of kaitlyn the whole time. WE ARE SO ELITIST AND MEAN AND STUCK UP. XD but it's all good. see, kaitlyn is 12 and has this big crush on dan... and it's just a little obvious. i mean, like... one of the pre-k kids could figure it out. she ALWAYS has to be next to him... and she even said "i have a secret crush on HIM! *points to dan* the guitar player!" to me today. i was like, "oh. yes, that's dan." lmao. so yeah... that was the recurring theme all afternoon. however, we DO have a chorus to our song, and we think we're gonna make the whole thing rhyme with "eyes", or at least have a part where we say a lot of words that rhyme with "eyes". so we have a list of about 50. we {the entire group of apprentices} added a LOT to our little combination dance thing. it's impossible to remember but we all watch each other so it's ok. i hope we actually do it in the show. anyway, afterword we hung out and played random songs with brian on piano and dan on guitar and like 5 of us singing. it made me so happy. we played 'imagine' and right at the end the sun came out {it had been cloudy all day} and went through the skylight and hit us.. amazing. it was so perfect. THEN we decided that we were gonna go hang out at rachel's... this is her, dan, leah, and myself... so three of us walked up and dan drove. he went past us and yelled at us and i JUMPED and SCREAMED. lmao. leah will never let me live that down. anyway we jumped on the trampoline for awhile and had some nice conversations, and then dan drove us down to album rehearsal {like 2 blocks... but it was getting late}. it's brush-up night and they're all playing pranks on each other. emily put salt water instead of water in the cup that stan and dephanie {LMFAO, i swear that's what came out} are supposed to drink out of... bwaha, evil. i had to leave before they started, though, cause i told muh mommy i'd be home 6:30 ish. tomorrow i probably won't be able to write, because i have swim duty after landscapes, and then i'm going to see willy wonka and sleep over at whitney's and get the harry potter book in the morning, with teresa, julia, and alicia! YAHOO! XD i'm really excited. xoxo 13 July 2005, 5:45 PM it goes like this, the fourth, the fifth ♪: rufus wainwright - hallelujah i'm a there's the most adorable little girl in my group, allison. she's just so cute/pretty... she's gonna be a knockout when she grows up {recurring theme: I AM NOT A LESBIAN! :P} today in art she reeeeeeeally wanted to be my partner and went "annieannieannieannieannieannie!*spaz*" *giggle* it was so cute. and i was with 3 little boys again when we wrote songs in music {matthew, who remembered that we did some really cool stuff last year, calder, who i was sitting next to and was telling me my ideas, and steven, who just loves me}. we wrote some pretty cute rhyming stuff. we have a BIG GROUP SONG and i can actually play it all on the piano, so far. dan plays guitar {emily plays bass, too, but she had to leave early today} and we were goofing off and for the part where we shout "our voices fill the air!" {lmao, long story - in my lj, for the record} he told me to, you know, drag my hand along the piano to make THAT NOISE... i don't think he thought i'd actually do it, but i did, and he laughed SO hard and i did too. hilarious. for apprentices we split up into two groups... one is pretty much rachel, dan and me with all the... shallow people. i mean i like them well enough, but we were doing writing today {with tangrams, and using them like magnetic poetry} and let's just say most of the stuff they came up with was related to "blue chicken snot" and "pretty yellow cheese". so d+r+myself put our stuff together and we're getting a pretty cool song. it was fun hanging out under the tree & writing it, too. leah's gonna join too, i guess. we danced, and we had a big group shape, and dan and i ended up together {away from the group} and he was like "we were in a relationship! *cheesy grin*" lol. he seriously makes me way happy. i sound like i have the biggest crush on him but i really don't, i promise. that'd just be weird. there was IMPROV today too! it had to be downstairs since there was a huge storm and the floor upstairs was wet... the roof leaks. so downstairs wasn't as much fun, but y'know, it was improv and i hadn't been since may. yeahhhh looooooove. tonight i'm going to knit and learn ALL the lyrics to this song because everyone else knows them {brian + dan play it} and i love it and i feel really inept. XD xoxo 11 July 2005, 4:40 PM why cant you just be happy? ♪: bright eyes - a perfect sonnet i hate this. ihatethisihatethisihatethis and i hate myself and the way i am. I WANT TO BE HAPPY. i want so badly to be happy and i try so. fucking. hard. but it seems like every time i am something happens to bring me down. i know i'm being emo and probably overdramatic and this is probably just a teenager thing but I DO NOT CARE. leah and rachel are driving me crazy because all that matters in the world is them. i got i get upset, and if i don't want to ruin my whole entire landscapes experience this year because I LOVE IT TO DEATH... but i don't know how i'm going to get over it without something changing. i think i need to talk to emily because i know she's been in the same sitatuion. this summer has all the makings for being the worst summer ever, but i'm determined not to make that happen. so i had an ok day. my kids are nice enough but janessa and mikaylah {sp} are annoying as hell and like 4 of the boys don't listen. and i hate being in the campus center and i hate the new writing teacher. and i wish i could stop crying. i'm not reading this over at all... well, if i do read it over i'm not going to bother to fix any mistakes, so just ignore them. xoxo 10 July 2005, 10:14 PM i know you wanna hit that ♪: brand new - play crack the sky SO GUESS WHAT??? life can be fucking good sometimes. last night i went to album. it was amazing. and hilarious. my crush on jon zoomed into the air. i might go on about him for a little bit. anyway. the scene with him and rachel... to quote a certain man whose name i've said wrong for awhile, "holy fucking shit!" they're the best actors of the four and jon is sooooo scary when he gets angry. i hung out for awhile afterwords and jon started playing guitar and emily grabbed me and we ran outside in a fit of giggles. blushing like crazy. WE'RE SO NOT IMMATURE AT ALL. XP anyway yeah, it was great and i love hanging out with them and i'm going back saturday & sunday, i think. but definitely saturday. today i went over to rach & em's in the morning to help em work on an article for the newspaper / poster for women in black, but their adorable little cousins were all over us so we didn't get much done. i walked down to the theater with them and hung out with the cast before the matinee, and then walked home. went to landscapes orientation at 3. it was CRAZY when people got there... i manned the 'start' table {giving out folders and directing people where to go}... but did a lot of running around, too. i was with all the new apprentices so i pretended to know what i was doing and took charge of everything and hell, maybe i DID know what i was doing, cause it all worked out. except there were a lot of new idiots that didn't even know what big group their kids were in. and they NEED to know that to register. *rolls eyes* when it quieted down we all hung out and i realized, again, that my guy friends are the best guys in the world and i love them to death. dan gave me guitar music for play crack the sky ♥♥♥ THEN julia and i took off and went to see 'war of the worlds' with teresa and whitney ended up being there too. i think it was a pretty good movie... i mean, i wasn't like blown away, but it was well-done. CUTE BOY TOO! but the one kid in the preview was better. now what was his name... ? afterword three of us walked to wendy's cause julia and i hadn't had any dinner. fries. and wendy's all to ourselves. good times. i have to go to bed soon cause i need to be there SUPER EARLY tomorrow. 8:30... well, that's not so early, but i have to get up at like 7 or 7:30. wish me luck!! xoxo |