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 October 22, 2003, 4:29 p.m. cause all i really want's to be with you, feel like i matter too ♪: i really don't think i should like him anymore. i have a seriously bad habit of liking shallow jerks and thinking there's something more to them than that. but i'm always wrong, and then i get all upset, and vow never to be like that again...and i always am... "it's so pathetic when you like someone that doesn't know you're alive." -alicia, the genius ;) he stares at me all the fucking time, so maybe he does know i'm alive, or maybe it's just all in my head. cause then he goes and flirts with liz, constantly. today they weren't away from each other for more than 3 seconds, except at lunch (cause we got assigned seats) and in classes. they're even together in study help. it's really kind of sad. they're like, obsessed with each other...but he still has to stare at me. gosh, it's so awful. i can't stand the way things are, and feeling like this, and just..everything. in band we got stuck in the little tiny stand room. after 8th period we did the look-thing in the hallway. it was scary. and at lunch he just kept turning around and staring at my table (which liz was at) but he was staring at my end of the table. the whore was on the other side. *sigh* i don't know anymore. xoxo. |