i'm so totally sad because i have to go 5 days without seeing x. 5! i don't know how i'm gonna stand it. but i'm starting to get confused with him, too. i spent the afternoon at misty's house and she ruined my life by telling me that when he talks to ALL girls he looks down and gets all shy. :( that made me so sad but...i dunno...he doesn't turn red does he? and he never TALKS to any girls. but me. i just know he likes me. and that makes me happy. really it does. but, i dunno...i'm getting so confused again. only this time it has nothing to do with p and c. i hope. i hope. and NO I DON'T LIKE P. he just has this way of making me feel bad. he looks at me with this lost look in his eyes like i did something to him. like he doesn't want to hate me. i guess it's the same way with whitney and rotu. she WANTS to hate (or strongly dislike) him, but ya know, she can't. he makes her feel bad. like me and p, i guess. i don't know. i guess i really just kinda figured things out about him. he just makes me feel bad. am i even making sense now? again, my fingers are flying on the keys and i have absolutely no control of what i'm saying. i don't know.